To those who are disappointed ?

To those who are disappointed at the things I am not?screw you. I guess I'm hurt that the people closest to me couldn't take me for who I am. You insisted I had to do all the right things to 'be like everyone else' but when I tried to do just that, everyone would point out my differences and focus on why I could never belong. What you were really worried about was making sure YOU were comfortable- that YOU were never embarrassed. Even if it put me in situations that were unhealthy for me physically, mentally and emotionally. You're not happy with anything that I truly am- well, I can't change that. I can't change it anymore than I could ask you to stop using your left hand because it 'makes me uncomfortable'. I am who I am. I came into the world this way. If you have a problem with it, take it up with God- this is how He made me.

That's why, this holiday, in the choice between having family and going it alone, I'm alone. You're not worth the insanity. You're not worth me killing who I am inside. YOU are the defect. People who can't look past their own insecurities and let their insecurities direct them at the expense of their own brood are DEFECTIVE. I got away from you and I'm going to become EVERYTHING you fear- SUCCESSFUL, HAPPY, HEALTHY AND WELL OFF. You can sit in the corner and suck your crumbs. I know why you resent me now. I'm everything you never had the guts to be.

The eagle is out of its cage. I'm letting you all go- for good.

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