Here's the thing, I have problems with being close with people. Physically, and mentally. I always think they're going to hurt me or betray my trust, that I figured was because I was severely psychologically bullied as a child. The whole touching thing? I could never guess why. It just made no sense. I finally realized today, after watching a drama TV show where a character got raped, that I have a severe problem with even being too close to somebody against my will because I was sexually abused by my brother when I was little. Because of him, I started to eat more and get fat so I wouldn't be attractive. I think I'm scared of him. I'm scared of telling somebody, because then it will be real. I … Read entire article »