I’ve been dating my boyfriend for 2 years, He cheated once psychically and emotionally. But what he doesn’t know is that I cheated on him with his worst enemy and one of my best friend’s sister’s boyfriend. No one knows about this and the guilt is so much to handle. Worst part, Im still having sex with his worst enemy and we really like each other. But I don’t want to break up with my boyfriend right now. What should I do?
Last week my boyfriend of the last two years and I broke up. I have always been a good girl and have only slept with 4 guys in my life, all of which were very serious boyfriends. Saturday I was really down and my girlfriends talked me into going out. I agreed and we pre-drank at one of their apartments. We ended up at a club I knew my boyfriend would never go to and we danced all night, mostly with each other, but occasionally a guy would get in with us. I felt myself getting more and more wasted as the night went on and my friends kept buying me shots which didn’t help. At closing time we were walking out and some really cute guys, we had danced with earlier, asked us to go to a late night party at their house. We went and alot of it is a blur, but next thing I know….
I am in the bathroom with some guy and we are making out. I remember out of pure instinct, I reached down and started rubbing his crotch through his jeans. I could feel him start to get hard and I unzipped his pants and pulled out his cock. I began jerking it as we kissed and his hand found it’s way into my panties. I was really drunk and really horny. I got down on my knees and started giving him head in the bathroom. Once I started feeling him get really hard I stood up and leaned into him and asked him if he wanted to fuck me. He kissed me and placed me up on the sink counter. I remember my pants falling to my ankles and his hands groping my breasts. Next thing I remember, he is inside of me and pounding away. I remember my head hitting the mirror a few times and me having to try my hardest not to moan. I am not sure how long we were in there, but I do remember we went at it in a few positions. I remember at the end he was telling me he was about to cum and I was straddling him on the toilet. I bounced a few more times and then buried his cock inside of me as I grinded on his lap. He moaned and I felt him start to cum. I have been on birth control for a long time, but have never let anyone cum inside of me. I remember feelimg it start to drip out of me and having a hsrd time standing up. I picked my pants up off the ground and slid back into them. We walked back in to the room where everyone was and I don’t remeber much, but I do remember the ride home and my friends asking what we did in the bathroom. I told them that we had just talked and kissed a little. I woke up feeling extremely guilty and have felt guilty ever since. Me and my ex still talk and we may work it out and I don’t know the guys name I had sex with and probably wouldn’t recognize him if I saw him again. I feel really guilty and still love my boyfriend, but at the same time feel like doing it again with others and building many secrets.
I am so in love with your husband and even though you threaten and harass me, I will never stop talking to him bc he is the love of my life and as a birthday present to him I’ll be getting his name tattoo on my back.
I have known my BFF for years and been in love with him for as long as I have known him. Today he started going out with another girl… does he even know he broke my heart? Does he even care anymore?
and i think you are, too! please ask me out before i go crazy. i am too scared because i was turned down by someone i loved for two years. so please, get it over with. i can’t stand it.
I used all 6 years in a school falling in love with a guy which never noticed me .. till the valentines day … at that time my friends told me another guy likes me and my pathetic way is that once someone tells me they like me i like them back .. but after i deny being with them .. but i didnt deny exactly on the valentines day those guys came up to me and instead of me piking the one i sat 6 years to love him.. (lets call him john) i went with the other one (jake) .. the worst mistake of my life!! i was in grade 5 when this happened and the mistake was me falling so in love with him so much…i thought he did the same i went to his b-day at another guys house and we swam together whenever someone was piking on me or doing something bad to me he was always there to stand up for me even when i had detention he stayed in it with me but then one thing changed everything .. the summer holiday … he went on holiday to jordan and i sat in romania .. at the end of the summer he sended me “if ur in town call me i love u and i miss u so much ” and i sended him that i miss him too and i lovee him really much but then a girl came .. that fell in love with him and when i tryed to walk away the girl (ana) came closer to him .. finally the break up came .. he sended me a note that said “if im not talking to her why isnt she talking to me ” and i said that “if ur not talking to me why shud i talk to you?” then he said “break up?” and i said “if thats what you want” and then he said yes .. at that time i didnt want to break up with him .. and all the class found out before it was officially a break up!! we where the most famous couple in school every1 was talking about it weeks after , that made me feel worse .. :// i missed him i felt terrible but i tryed to hide it .. not after one day after the break up he went with ana!! and then people started telling me stuff about them trying to make me jelous nd i think it worked but i never admitted it ..:|
one day another guy came and jake (the guy i broke up with) was helping daniel (lets call him daniel) be with me .. but i hated him!!! i told him that and then he started talking to me .. i tryed to ignore it .. but the happy thing was he went from school .. now im in grade 7 and im in love with a guy every girl in probably in love with .. but im not admitting it .. and 3 girls in my class had a fight .. i always wanted them to have a fight but now its weird cuz im forced to chose between 1 girl and the 2 others and i just cant .. !! i think most ppl are in my situation .. now .. the guy i like is in ana’s gang and i hate it!! he only sees me as the gum girl he never said more to me than “hey can i have gum?” well he said hey bye and thoz random stuff but anyways .. he is too short for me probably that’s why i’m not gonna admit i love him ..his best friend is my best guy friend he tells me everything we re great friends but he wanted us to be more so i just said i didn’t want to go out with him and no big deal .. and now the guy i broke up with bcuz of ana is trying to get on my side he is standing up for me again and things arent going as bad as they went the previous years .. i kinda like it .. but the girl ana gets more annoying as time passes and i dont think i can stand it anymore i just wish i can go up to her and slap her in her face.
Every1 sees me as the shy person and im trying to prove its not true but it kind of is :// i laugh funny and everyone is piking on me but i don’t really care because after that they say sorry .. i just like how things turned out .. now im friends with 3 girls and we kind of break the rules without anyone knowing .. we sneak at the stage and sing .. or dance or whatever we are in the mood to do .. its really great fun but i really do need help now because nobody in my class has had a boyfriend and nobody knows how it hurts and if i try to tell someone they’d make fun of it cause most of the people are not so mature .. write a comment if u had ever went through this and if u can tell me how to get over it ..
P.S. i just wanted to wrote a quote :
AND WHEN I TRY TO WALK AWAY YOU’D HURT YOURSELF TO MAKE ME STAY 
I go to a Dr several drs and they dont care about me? i tell them my problems and they just laugh thier heads off i written complaints and they do nothing what am i meant to do i feel uncared for.
i am almost sorry i am leaving you for drugs
