I am a 46 year old woman – divorced for nearly 8 years now and have an obsession to humiliation. I get a sexual thrill and intense feeling when being used. I invite a group of men (usually the same group – but often they bring along their friends) to my house for me to perform oral sex on them. I kneel just wearing my knickers and they use me to suck them off when they want and as often as they want, then they leave. I feel totally ashamed of myself as soon as they go – but soon after I crave for the next session. For the past year I have been doing this once a month. The groups are usually 7 or 8 men but the most was 18 and at others 11 and 14. Most of the guys get sucked off a couple of times and some manage 3 or 4 times. I don’t understand what drives me to do it other than I get intense sexual satisfaction from it.