I am afraid to date.

Im scared to date. Recently i been asked out numerous times. I have even gone as far to stand men up because im just to scared to go. My ex bf Brian was totally abusive to me. Not as much physical as emotionally and sexually. He would assault me to the point that one time i tried to kill myself. He physically assautled me then so that I wouldnt. I know at that at that time i was extremely depressed and he loved that because he could just keep pushing me lower and lower. I ended up cuttin myself more than i ever have but those scars are nothing like the ones inside. So then i met a guy a few months later and he turns out to be totally controlling. Its been like this since i was 17 i have dated guys that are horrible. Well i relaized one day part of the problem was me and I have been working on raising my self esteem. Which i have i feel more confident then ever. Problem is. I still am scared to date. They guys that are decent and on a good path I feel like im not good enough for them because im 24 and only in my second year of college when many people are aready working on the career. And the guys i use to date. I run away from because im scared of them hurting me. I know alot of this is on me but im not sure how to get over the bad stuff and move on to the good. I could use some advice.

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